The slave called amanda is doing well, she had some problem to accept the cage and what it represent, but she is now sleeping comfortable in it and has made it her home. she has gone from being very unfocused, lively and basically all over the place to now being very aware of her movements, speech, where I am at all times, ways to please me, my rituals and some of my house rules. she is on the road of being a very productive slave and property and I hope her owner will be pleased when he comes back. she is no way near to live up to the standard I have but she is on her way and she is very responsive to new things now. When she came here she was very scared about being whipped or abuse in any kind of way, but now she understands the need and the reason behind it and, even if it is still hard on her, she takes it more or less silently. The first step in becoming a good slave is totally accept the new life, the status of being worthless and being treated as a mindless object. Most slaves say they do already accept this fact but when they really realize this, often in the middle of training, they break down and start crying or have an anxiety attack. It has nothing to do with regret or to want to be somewhere else; it is just a release of tension from a long time being someone else in vanilla world. The inner fight is going on all the time when a slave has not accepted her faith, and little by little the training peels the doubts and resistance away from her and within a year or so she has completely accepted the authority of her owner and other dominants around her and she is truly ready to serve in a more honest way than before.
amanda has only had one small breakdown yet where she now accept me and the life here, but she knows it is just temporary and she probably hang on to that. Hopefully her owner will take this to the next level when they are back home. I would hate to see this effort of mine gone to waste now when I have started breaking her mind and her inner resistance.
A slave need focus, she need to understand that nothing in her life will ever be the same again once she is accepted as property to her Owner. she is controlled in every way possible and that is how it must be, if you as an owner fail to control her every move, thought and behavior you will end up with a confused and unhappy slave, because they want to be controlled all the way and beyond. They do not want to make decisions about anything; it makes them nervous and uneasy. If you let them think for themselves they will in time leave you or get hurt in some way or the other. A true slave do not want to think, she want to be dependent on you as her guardian and owner, she looks to you for everything and you better deliver. amanda has started to understand this and she is more happy than when she got here. she responds very quickly to every command and order I give her, and with a smile. This smile and a wish to eagerly serve my every wim is what this is all about, no matter if it is domestic, full fledge abuse or sexually she doesn’t hesitate to perform, and she is upset when she feels she is not being at her very best and when she feels she has let me down. she is not a very smart slave, I would even say she is a simpleton, but she do make up for it in attitude and good behavior, and I enjoy to see her trying harder and harder to please me. It is the sadist in me who like to see how far I can push her. I like it a lot and I am damn good at it.
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